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I have less desire to be here now. Less desire to be most places. I'm unsure if I'm worse or better, and I certainly can't tell whose standards I'm measuring by anymore. At least mine were consistent. It's still better to shut up, though.
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Fukung is back. My arm itches. I want.. to be able to do something others can't. Or won't. It's easier to think I have value when I can. There are others who can do everything I can do, and so I'm unnecessary. It would amuse me to find someone else, similar enough to do the things people like about me, and of course better things, and just send everyone over. To disappear would require more strength and more will than I bother to have, though..
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Fukung is down! Noooooo! That thing's a better distraction than most, even when I don't really want to give up whatever feeling I'm pretending I'm trying to lose. In other news... oh who'm I kidding, not a damned thing I can say. Like I don't feel bad enough for talking. Guilt is my stalker.
Something...
It's apparently been around six years since I've poked this particular feature. It is an impressive record, but relatively useless. Currently, I'm distracting myself from the perceived disappearance of several people. I'm also trying this new thing where I attempt to trust people to tell me things, I'm not sure it'll go well, but I'm doing ok at it. Trying other new things involving how I am to others, thought that would go well, not so sure now. Seems things have still gotten messy, regardless. And of course the waiting to figure out if I should disappear. It's all muck right now.. Suppose I might go seek out someone to entertain me and occu
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